As my scavenger hunt with Jesus continues, I am overwhelmed with amazement on how simple, yet complex God's ways are. Everything has such a beautiful order to it and even more incredible revelation. There are new mysteries to seek and discover daily. I LOVE how the Holy Spirit led me to this important life changing revelation I am going to share with you today. It started with searching for our new place this last January. Between my husband and I, we had one vehicle for the two of us. He was working an hour away up north from where we lived. That left me without transportation during the day. I had to make special arrangements, but I did my homework and called apartment complexes around the area we were looking to move to. I had planned a full day to drive around and look at places and put in an application to the best one.
A couple weeks before this day I had gone to a church service and the speaker told me to read Isaiah 54. The Holy Spirit had been speaking to me previously about rebuilding my foundation in Jesus, my Rock. In Isaiah 54, He highlighted verses 11 and 12, "O afflicted one, storm-tossed and not comforted, behold, I will set your stones in antimony, and lay your foundations with sapphires. I will make your pinnacles of agate, your gates of carbuncles, and all your wall of precious stones." It immediately caused me to go back to the original verse that inspired my first blog post, Proverbs 24:30-31: "I passed by the field of a sluggard, by the vineyard of a man lacking sense, and behold, it was all overgrown with thorns; the ground was covered with nettles, and its stone wall was broken down." God first revealed to me that my wall was broken down and my heart and soul were overgrown with nettles and thorns. He cleared out the weeds. And as He was healing my heart, He helped me set a new foundation in Him and His love. Now my walls and gates were being built.
The day to look at places quickly approached. One apartment complex caught my eye, mostly because it was located on Emerald Drive. God likes to make things pretty clear for me, otherwise I might miss it. Sure enough, the place on Emerald Drive is where we moved too. My wall of precious stone in a modern day manifestation. During the first couple months as we settled in I made an effort to start putting the practices that God had put on my heart to help me in my daily life. As I was reading through the Bible I kept noticing the order of God. Everything had a certain color, a specific place, a cycle, a perfect time. I started praying for help to get organized and help with maintaining a budget. I have always been "a go with the flow" type of person, which can be great in some ways...and not so great in others. I decided to attend one of the women's groups at my new church. I walked in and the the first speaker was a home school mom (like me), and started giving tips on how to organize, set goals, and budget! Thank you, Jesus!!
As I learned to seek the presence of God on a regular and consistent basis in my secret place, the Lord helped me tackle the every day tasks on the surface I needed to take care in a more orderly fashion. He also started to reveal the root of why I had difficulty accomplishing these tasks in the past.
I had no boundaries.
My wall was broken down, remember? My heart was so overgrown with thorns and nettles, because the walls of protection were broken. This feeling of God's incredible, indescribable love flowed over me. God wanted to rebuild my walls. Not just any type of walls. Walls of precious stones--precious stones that reflect beautiful colors when His pure light is shining through. And me, He wants me to be His reflector. The walls that He would build would not only protect me, but they would also protect my children. "All your children shall be taught by the Lord, and great shall be the peace of your children" (Isaiah 54:13).
Real life- after a life-altering revelation...rebuilding walls when your walls were broken is an extremely difficult process. It is absolutely necessary to do this hand-in-hand with the Holy Spirit. God makes it possible to get through the exhausting emotional process of creating boundaries where there were none. Dealing with the fact that people who previously were taking advantage of you is hurtful. These people also hate walls aka boundaries. There were nights that I searched on the internet trying to find the best way to set boundaries. I had realized that God was teaching me everything I needed to know already by obeying His voice, reading His word, and asking for wisdom in prayer. He showed me true and genuine love so I would know what it looked like. He had already started to renew my identity in Him, allowing me to use His strength. He had already led me to say no in situations I normally would have said yes to, because I felt external pressure. He had already encouraged me to be bold in my faith, so that I was confident in sharing who I was created to be. He had already had been teaching me to be slow to speak and that I didn't need to explain myself to people who wouldn't understand. He had already delivered me from the fear that I had of other people not liking me or disappointing them, because I started to put God first before anyone and anything else.
I started to look up what God said about who I should spend my time with, what my focus should be on, the importance of rest, and the importance of borders. I have been reading through the Old Testament, specifically Numbers and Deuteronomy. God gives the Israelites very specific laws for their daily living and specific borders for the Promised Land. He gives them boundaries, physical and spiritual, to set His people apart AND TO PROTECT THEM. Whenever the Israelites disobeyed those laws, there were severe consequences. As I was doing some more research, I was blown away learning about how the food laws in the Old Testament protected the Jewish people from the diseases the rest of the world were suffering from, not only in the Bible, but later on in history when people were dying from The Plague.
IMPORTANT POINT: Listen to the Holy Spirit and go back to the Bible to make sure what you are hearing aligns with the Word of God. In the New Testament, Paul writes to the Galatians, "But I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do. But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law." Galatians 5:16-18
Setting boundaries, like I mentioned above is difficult. Your flesh will fight it and the people on the other side whatever wall, gate, window, ect. that you have erected will most likely not like it very much. They might say not-very-nice things about you. It is good to know that "Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." (Matt 5:10). If you are in this process, which I am still going through and learning... cling on to that still, small voice from heaven. Galatians 5:19-25 goes on to say, "Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery, enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. And those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another."
For me, I had to figure out that the people fulfilling their fleshly desires around me and had no desire to change and who were taking advantage of me had to stay on the other side of the wall. Does that mean I didn't love the people on the outside of the wall? Absolutely not. We need to LOVE and PRAY for the people who we have set boundaries with, but that does not mean they get to be on the inside. It also doesn't mean they have to be on the other side of the wall forever. I am learning still that even though someone may have a hard time respecting a boundary at first, they may be willing to respect it later on. There may be situations, like in a family or in a marriage that can make this process even more difficult. I can say with full confidence that if you ask for wisdom from God, He will give you it to you and the strength needed to withstand every battle. He will give you the prayers and scriptures to pray, and even the words that need to be said to the people you are dealing with.
Father God, I pray over every single person reading this right now, that you give them the direction, humility, and wisdom they need, to let You build their walls out of precious stones. A wall that protects their mind, soul, and spirit, while still letting them walk in freedom, allowing them to fully shine Your Beautiful Light. Your Light reflected through that wall makes the people on the outside desire what's inside the wall. Thank you for helping us forgive and love the toxic people who have broken down our walls in the past and leading us to people with beautiful shining walls, who love You and who are walking in step with the Holy Spirit. Thank you for healing our hearts, and helping us through the every day situations and spiritual warfare we face as we seek Your Face and build a closer relationship with You. In Jesus Name, Amen.